My canvas needs some paint
According to my dictionary, the definition of inertia is like being squashed by a thousand elephants. And metaphorically speaking, that is how I am feeling now.
I don't normally whine. But CAN I JUST WHINE?? I have a report to finish, and I don't feel like doing it. I just had an epiphany. Sometimes, laziness does not need justification of any sorts. I'm feeling lazy today, just because. And I don't think I am going to do anything about it. Life is too short to fill it with pretentious emotions. I am a perfectionist over-achiever who has pride the size of Eiffel tower. I happen to be really lazy at heart. And there is nothing wrong with it.
In fact, I was SO lazy that instead of getting started on my work, I just spent the past an hour and a half doing shit and reading back my past blog entries. I know this sounds a little self-absorbed and stupid but I was suddenly enthralled with my life! I mean, all the travelling escapades which came and went, the excitement, and the colourful emotions which are sorely lacking at the present. And then there were the good moments, the love and everything else that came with it.
If my life is a black canvas, all those moments would be the pretty fluorescent streaks. So I guess sometimes we just gotta wait, and soon enough the colours will come.
On another note, yesterday I bought another pair of pumps. Pretty checkered ballet flats from zara which was on sale!
Epiphany number two: There is only so much self-control one can inflict upon oneself and to attempt more would be foolish.
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